Because the picture I posted didn't sum up my week at all. That picture says I had a lovely week enjoying the sunshine with my daughter when, in reality, this wasn't the case.
However, I didn't have a picture of sick, snot, phlegm, coughing, crying, tantrums, house looking like it had been burgled and me looking like I'd been dragged through a hedge backwards.
That was my week...and that was the week before too.
The serene picture you see of MC was taken on Saturday afternoon on a meet up with the inlaws. I can assure you the scene off camera wasn't the same but I'll blog about that another day.
I shouldn't be moaning.
I know so many people who have a tough time constantly. People with really poorly children, people with children with special needs and others. I know I'm lucky. I have two (usually) healthy kids, a nice house, a fantastic husband and so on.
Yes, I have a lot to be thankful for.
I'm the first to admit that.
However, things just got on top of me.
Even though TC is an amazing sleeper for someone who only turned 2 months old on Monday it has been MC who had been keeping us awake.
Last week we ended up at the local hospital with her at 10.30pm one night as she was that bad with her coughing.
I have to admit, whilst she was ill I crumbled. Lack of sleep and her constant demands because of how poorly she was got to me.
Since I had TC I've been quite strong - only having a touch of baby blues on day 5 after the birth. Last week I think it all caught up with me.
I fell behind with my freelance work and I started to panic.
I felt like I was sinking.
The sun was shining and I couldn't get out in it because of the kids. Everyone seemed to be out and about and I was stuck in feeling pretty miserable.
I neglected my blog, I neglected my blogging friends, I neglected my work, I neglected the housework, I neglected my friends.
More importantly I neglected ME.
I think as mother's we always put our families above everything else but if we aren't functioning properly then our families actually suffer more.
This week both kids are fit and healthy (although MC is still coughing at night a bit), I've managed to catch up a little with my freelance work, I have plans to catch up with friends and I've taken a few hours out to go and get my hair done and sit out in the sun a little.
This week is like night and day compared to last.
So next time I feel like I'm sinking I'm going to make sure I try and get some time to myself and remember that things can only get better.